Walauuuu 2012 :D

Woooowwwww how long has it been since my last post :D

What really made me come back into blogging was actually thanks to the curiosity I had last night..while thinking about "hey wondering if the "me" last time was the same as the present "me"?" hahaha I guess it was worth it

When I began to track back all the posts since the most recent one in 2010...i began to realise how the personality in the 2010 me slowly change to someone else as I tracked backwards...hahaha talking about divergence..I surprised myself really lol

So much things have changed since then..I wasnt so into gaming anymore..searching for a gf became a lifelong mission (hopefully not lifelong literally)..Work has becoming more demanding of me...And people around me changed too...Its funny to see how we (SRC gang) changed from happy-go-lucky mode to "FML I need to think about future" mode hahaha...Nvrtheless it cant be argued that Changes took places..But its wonderful to know how the Essential part of us which was formed by our past, persevered through time and we're still a fun bunch of people to be with hahaha

What's good in the last few years? I decided to became more flexible with myself :) something I'm proud of..hahaa planning to go Stereosonic, Aussie by end of this year...wakakkaa...then 2 weeks later Zoukout in Singapore...got myself an Iphone...Tht really changed the dimension at which i'm communicating at hahaha..No more SMSes yay!...My mind really opened in 2012..hahaaha I prolly am thinking of dropping my job a while to do some soul searching in future soon :)

What's not so good? I guess I still havent found my passion in life...now this is something I really take seriously...but somehow I just cant find a cause to fight for...A reason to Fight...nor literally..but to be able to pour all my efforts into something I believed in...and sadly till now it's no where to be found haiz..but I'm not giving up just yet hahaha NEVAH

Alright tht's it for the starter of a string of posts yet to come..I know its gonna be worth it few years down the road reading back all these..as these memories dont come by easy :)

Wondering if I could get the others to come back to blogging too haha xD

Seasonal...

Seasonal Friends....

primary school we got primary school friends....secondary school got secondary school friends....n it goes on to uni.....now for me....I just realised i'm slowly drifting apart from those uni frens i know...i did try my part to organize movies n stuffs to prevent the drifting...but it look likes friends are seasonal after all...no matter how hard one could try....people grow apart...

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Naive..

I'm born in a family of 5....father, mother and 2 sisters..I guess tht....since i nvr had a brother in my life...I kinda took friends around me whom are kinda "close" to me as brothers lol..brothers whom u know tht always be your side no matter the situation...

Now i just realise how naive was I at coming to a conclusion like tht lols...

Time for a change..

By change....i mean i plan to get a lala hairstyle this thursday lols...

hahahahhahaa...actually just wanna get a new change lar..not necessarily lala...lols

To be continued...=P

Weird feeling...

Got this sudden weird feeling tht things are gonna take a better turn.....

suddenly feel a bit happy while working...

I think i'm going crazy lol XD

Just never ends..

I dunno if i'm the only one feeling this but....I always felt tht i havent put enough effort into this or tht...or I could have done it better in some ways....Feels so demanding of myself..in a way it shows tht i'm not even confident in my own capabilities...nvr once hav i felt..."Hey this is good enough..I done my best" =/

Its kind of weird tht...we always think tht our current mentality is sufficient or "perfect"...but if we ever choose to think further...we realised that we're actually many steps behind others or wat we aspire to be =/

These days I'm always thinking..how can i change myself to be better...n if i ever figure tht part out...from where do i find the drive to make tht change in myself...these simple questions (tht I should hav figured out long ago..) yet important to who i'm gonna become...

Always feel tht something is missing....always n always....really do hope someone could convince me tht nothing is missing...lol

Less like a Robot...

Haha ever since i started goin back college medan for cheap lunch....I feel so human again...having the usual lunch with uni gang XD...so much lessss like a robot =P

Eating with my colleagues is fun n all but.....they have expensive taste weih....each meal more than RM10 confirm...sometimes RM20...my wallet oso can cry lo =____=

but but now tht i starting to go back medan.....Phrases like "Sei kau pun"...."Lima setengah" are like music to my ears XD

yes i'm cheapskate i know...but hey...it sure aint easy surviving on own salary weih...wan buy new stuffs oso will think twice now....but it sure feels awesome having lunch with my lecturers n frens =D