Start of a sem...

It's another sem...n it just makes me feel more n more depressed....not tht I'm not looking forward into this sem...but i just realized i only got about a year n a half left in uni

I just somehow feel i wasted my youth la...it's gone man...ofcos there are memorable times here n there...but just somehow wished I could do more...maybe play some instruments...learn some martial arts....but somehow in the end..I ended up with the art of "scoring without studying" =.= my life is tht sad wei....

But yeah..even admist all those hours of life i missed...it's better late than nvr la...at least i got to do something i really enjoy doing last few years in uni...Foos n Gaming!...haha..i know some of u out there will condemn me in the foosing part =.=...but hey..i still enjoy it k..just tht the uni took it away from me..=.=..N also Gaming is still ongoing with the Projects...hahaha...

n those will still go on this year....n also will be expecting the usual "lunching" sessions =P..really missed "lunching" sessions..xD..n ofcos somehow miraculously i hope i will enjoy helpin vubc with this year's activities.miraculous becos i usually don't like these stuffs..but still do it anyway...lol...n yeah...i shud get a library card..=.=..how unusual for a scholarship student to not have library card eh...lol

So near yet so far...

Just when i think i'm so close to realizing one of my new year resolution...

I realised tht i'm gonna hav to wait till year end to achieve it!!!...zomg....geram-nya....

nvm...i know this is an opportunity for me....this gives me a year time to prepare for it!! xD to make it memorable!!..lol...new year resolution mah...waiting till year end is nth!!..xD


(I shall be buffed up by then!!...lol xD..u wait...)

Concern...

Class starting next monday!!!....how sad....at first i'm complaining how long this holiday is...now i'm complaining how short it suddenly becomes =(...suddenly my frens are flying back to their unis in aus dy...this holiday quite "short" oso leh...

now tht class is gonna start....MY only concern is.....

none other than...

VUBC!!!...

hohoho....sei mou....ms.Christine n ms.Samantha haunting me bout it for so long...not enough...ms.Lee suddenly made a creepy joke bout me taking on the president position...not funny at all =.=..must avoid tht situation at all cost....i just wanna be a happy quiet committee member only...leave those big positions to someone who's more "mulia" than me =.=..scholarship student still human 1 k....i oso wan a normal life wei =.=...

oh well....

Expecting something better...

I gonna wait till March...or maybe end of March...if still there isn't any improvements...I'll just quit...end of story...wanna find more freedom else where....

Confidence n choices....

When we make a choice...there's got to be some reason behind those choices rite?..or else life would be totally random la...the choice i'm talkin here about is...let's say we have choice between going with plan A or plan B...n plan A is Hard to achieve but with high returns....n plan B is easy but satisfactory returns....normally which would you go for?....

Tht question eventually leads to the next point of my topic..which is Confidence..(in my opinion la..)..If u think u can handle plan A..obviously u would go for it...but let's say u're not so sure...u don really think it's within your capabilities...then u would go for satisfactory level which is plan B lo...fair enough...sounds logic to me la...

Ok now...here's something to relate to...when a person gets a bf/gf...some people might think that they're very grateful for having a bf/gf..or someone who likes them.."Wah got someone like me wo...I couldn't ask for more wei."..being grateful is 1 thing...it sounded like he/she doesn't deserve an actual choice..(i stress tht grateful is 1 thing..but this issue is another..)..as satisfactory is enough..somehow or rather...in my opinion...tht shouldn't be the way things work out rite?..i mean...we all deserve a choice..as in anything...nothing should hinder us in making these choices..we all should have tht confidence and really go for what we really want...n not what we think our "level" deserve rite?...or else...we might actually regret when we look back into the years...rite?...

Of cos i'm not implying tht we should think n doubt our choices now la...ofcos it's a blessing to hav someone u like to feel the same way towards u too...but sometimes in some part of our lives..this issue do appear in some people's life i think...n i don think people should just "Ok la...will settle for this la..."...we should actually go beyond tht la...anyways just my opinion onli =)

So guys...Valentines coming..have a great Valentine...and don't let anything to prevent u from getting the "One" to celebrate a happy Valentines day..If u wan it...just go for it!! xD

(my thoughts are kinda..."strange" oso...even in my own opinion xD)

Changing some stuffs..

I was just thinking whether i should change any part of my blog layout....hmm...if i wanna do so....where should I start ho?...

I remember some people mentioning bout the lack of photos in the blog...lol...can't blame me right...I don't have a digicam or SLR like other rich kids mah...wat to do....maybe i'll try to work harder to get 1?...see 1st la...see 1st...

hmm...bout the main title...dunno i shud change or not...cos it's like so damn nice wei...why la change...the background (blue FF8 background) is actually part of a bigger wallpaper i made few years ago...haha lol...Cannot find on internet 1!!!..to be specific ..it was made when i was Form 5 lol....then just add the words "Loss of me" there only..senang aje...Then again...some people say the title looks like for some emo blog but my blog not emo 1...haha lol....so how?...either i change the title...or i become more emo...lol...which one easier leh ho...lol

OHYA...i remember sumthin...maybe the cursor must change oso...I really like "somebody's" blog cursor wei...(tht person arh..)got starry thing trailing behind 1...damn addictive wei looking at it...lol...maybe change to tht ho...hmm..think 1st...

N last thing...the way I write....dunno whether okay or not...haha..but ohwell it's my blog...ofcos Okay lar..haha...lol..then why i write this part ho...lol.....

tht's it!..maybe will change sumthing soon...haha...

New Year again?..lol...cina punya...

Wish everybody a happy CNY!!...Come to my house if u can find it!! lol XD...

it's the time to collect angpau n recover modal for last year...hahaha....n oso to meet relatives n gamble a lot....hahahaha...hopefully can meet up with frens n play mahjong oso la...hehe...additional income mah...

kinda funny when i come to think of it....why do we need a specific reason like CNY to visit relatives house or frens house....we shud be able to just go only rite?...oh well...the society has changed...everything oso need reason....CNY for family...Mother's day for mother...father's day for father...lol..means other days can disrespect them n don't hav to buy stuffs for them =.= ...n after CNY is Valentines....N i'm pretty sure...everyone buy presents for their loved ones only because it's valentines day n not because they plan to buy gifts from the beginning just because they feel like buying 1 =( doesn't sound really nice when it's pointed out eh....

for example.."why buy chocolate for me?"..."Valentines day mah..."....LOL...tht simple...

I personally think it shud be like..."why buy chocolate for me?".."Because i knew u wud like it..." or "Tot u wud like it..." =)

but ofcos i do know people who buy gifts just because they feel like buying gifts for their loved ones...n hats off to them =P...some guy even told he once gives presents on a monthly basis to his gf...respect wei...BUT ofcos...my point here isn't about quantity!..but more of correctly placing the intention...obviously these special days shud be celebrated...but i think the reason for celebration shud be beyond tht =P

anyways...i plannin to stay up whole nite...n this piece of thought just came into my mind..haha..n so again...Happy CNY guys!