Changing some stuffs..

I was just thinking whether i should change any part of my blog layout....hmm...if i wanna do so....where should I start ho?...

I remember some people mentioning bout the lack of photos in the blog...lol...can't blame me right...I don't have a digicam or SLR like other rich kids mah...wat to do....maybe i'll try to work harder to get 1?...see 1st la...see 1st...

hmm...bout the main title...dunno i shud change or not...cos it's like so damn nice wei...why la change...the background (blue FF8 background) is actually part of a bigger wallpaper i made few years ago...haha lol...Cannot find on internet 1!!!..to be specific ..it was made when i was Form 5 lol....then just add the words "Loss of me" there only..senang aje...Then again...some people say the title looks like for some emo blog but my blog not emo 1...haha lol....so how?...either i change the title...or i become more emo...lol...which one easier leh ho...lol

OHYA...i remember sumthin...maybe the cursor must change oso...I really like "somebody's" blog cursor wei...(tht person arh..)got starry thing trailing behind 1...damn addictive wei looking at it...lol...maybe change to tht ho...hmm..think 1st...

N last thing...the way I write....dunno whether okay or not...haha..but ohwell it's my blog...ofcos Okay lar..haha...lol..then why i write this part ho...lol.....

tht's it!..maybe will change sumthing soon...haha...

New Year again?..lol...cina punya...

Wish everybody a happy CNY!!...Come to my house if u can find it!! lol XD...

it's the time to collect angpau n recover modal for last year...hahaha....n oso to meet relatives n gamble a lot....hahahaha...hopefully can meet up with frens n play mahjong oso la...hehe...additional income mah...

kinda funny when i come to think of it....why do we need a specific reason like CNY to visit relatives house or frens house....we shud be able to just go only rite?...oh well...the society has changed...everything oso need reason....CNY for family...Mother's day for mother...father's day for father...lol..means other days can disrespect them n don't hav to buy stuffs for them =.= ...n after CNY is Valentines....N i'm pretty sure...everyone buy presents for their loved ones only because it's valentines day n not because they plan to buy gifts from the beginning just because they feel like buying 1 =( doesn't sound really nice when it's pointed out eh....

for example.."why buy chocolate for me?"..."Valentines day mah..."....LOL...tht simple...

I personally think it shud be like..."why buy chocolate for me?".."Because i knew u wud like it..." or "Tot u wud like it..." =)

but ofcos i do know people who buy gifts just because they feel like buying gifts for their loved ones...n hats off to them =P...some guy even told he once gives presents on a monthly basis to his gf...respect wei...BUT ofcos...my point here isn't about quantity!..but more of correctly placing the intention...obviously these special days shud be celebrated...but i think the reason for celebration shud be beyond tht =P

anyways...i plannin to stay up whole nite...n this piece of thought just came into my mind..haha..n so again...Happy CNY guys!

I'm gonna be 21 this year?....

I just realized i'm gonna get the key to my freedom this year...lol...but looking back at it...how much do i resemble a 21 year old male eh?....honestly...most people would find me to be around 17 or 18 now...just surveyed some people at the foosball table..n yeah...the new pre-u students thinks i'm in another pre-u course too =P

so...comparing me with another 21 year old punk.....how different am I?....firstly I dont go clubbing n i'm not really a fan of drinking weekly..lol...oh well...i think tht's more of personal preferences rather age differences...hahaha..after all not all 21 yr old people would go clubbing rite....(maybe i'm wrong O_O haha..)...N then....2ndly....when i mix with my frenz from VU....I realised sumthing....I don hav the thing called "ex-es"...yeah ex-gf n stuffs....ALL of them has ex-gf or ex-bf..except for me...somehow i think i'm kinda left behind huh...lol...(Must put in more effort RAWR!!...or quoting from someone maybe i just shud hav buffed up more huh =P..wonder whether it'll work =_=..after all i'm still considered new in these things...)...N oh yeah!...I still enjoy cartoons n animes!...does tht make me stand out from the 21 yr old general crowd?...i dunno haha....but adults these days still watch those animations on cinema k...so i don think i'm diff much la...haha..

Now tht i'm approaching 21....will i be taken seriously?..lol...don think so....how will i be viewed n perceived of eh?....haha....hard to say ler these things...wonder who could say wat it means to be 21...

but but...hey in the end..main issue is..who can tell me why i still look like i'm 17/18 la...cos my look nvr changed?...or am i always young at heart tht my body doesn't grow old...lol..or i just don act like 21?...haha....who can tell me >.<.....

Effort...

Haha i forgotten bout my own yearly review....wat i done in the past year...n whether i hav achieved anything or not....honestly...i don think i achieved much...compared to the year before where i completed my NS training n got my scholarship n stuffs....2008 wasn't tht special as it should be...my guess is...it's because I forget what it means to put in effort when it comes to accomplishing something...haih..

When i was Form 4/5 like tht...when I really wanna achieve something....I really can put in the Effort to get it leh...it's like the passion for it...n I really try every single way to try n get it...For example..like my studies.......Hmm....wait...I was quite lazy at tht time...nvm skip tht...Let's talk bout how i really like to entertain my classmates...lol..(ok...something to talk about...)I remember doing all those "childish" stuffs like hiding behind walls...n scaring people..(Form 5 lol...people do tht in standard 5 wei..)..but oh well...people laughed..tht's all tht matters...n I remember tht my Sarcasm was put into best use tht year..lol...until I got the title of Court Jester of 5s5....LOL...din see tht coming...

Anyway...the 1 thing tht really shocked even myself..is when i decide to try n "chase" a girl..honestly...at tht point of time...I was clueless bout things like tht..(even still clueless now...)..so wat happen was....My brain told me to try every single way!..don leave anything untried....n by every single way means tht every way tht is normally used...lol...(U could say my mind was set then..n i really decide to go for it..)..so...Starting...for her birthday...I tried the "Soft Toy" teknik...n conclusion is...i'm surprised at how the plan backfired!!..lol..cos u see....normally this plan will work...but..BUT....if the girl happens to hav 2 large wardrobes keeping soft toys...the chances of she having the same 1 is relatively high...n tht's wat happened la!! but she still accepted it la =_=lol...

oh well...then i move on to the Website teknik (u all get the idea la)...this one....I actually tried to learn using photoshop before decorating the website...n it was tedious to learn using it at my age k...then i google so many things...just to slowly slowly learn to put up many things on the website n make it look nice...i remember it was on tripod.com or something...lol...(cant believe i used tht teknik..)..n the list goes on la!...such as the "Letter" teknik...I even tried the "Go into the same club" teknik wei!! =_= until unexpectedly i became naib pengerusi summore =_= cos i attend duty so often n being so rajin...LOL..the things i've done...this is pure effort wei...but in the end...the bird flies...the sun sets...things din happen the way I hoped it would la...oh well...but i don call it effort wasted k..it was memorable..

N now...for those who knows me now...do i look like the kind of person who does things like i mentioned in the previous paragraph?...I bet Mark wouldn't believe...lol...not even any Projects...haha..I don even look like i wud do those things when i was form4/5..n when my fren told me tht i suddenly took a "turn"..I also..."Yahoh"..haha...anyways...these days...I'm just not as motivated dy...somehow..I just hope i can regain tht passion for things n get in tht energetic mood..n not just staying chilled everyday as though everything tht happens wouldn't shake me much la...

anyways...i know some of these things i mentioned may seem small to some of u there...but it does reflect something...it does..n oh well tht's it for this long post...my brain stop dy suddenly...just feel like putting my thoughts out once in a while =P

NY resolution....

I tot of another impossible thing!! therefore it shall be a new year resolution oso...

It is....

"THT"....

lol....go figure it out yurselves.....muahahhaha....it's like those IQ questions tht u'll nvr get the answers.....muahahahhaaha

Sometimes...

Sometimes....i think tht things are just unfair...as though it happens in a way tht intentionally opposes our wish....Enough said....

New year..new year...

2009...so many pessimistic views on this year...but i not gonna mention it la..makes it all the more gloomier...anyways...i seen so many people writing down or rather listing their new year resolution for 2009...i guess i shud too haha...seeing tht normally people don't achieve these goals...i shall list down impossible things tht I would like to achieve this year =___=..kinda pointless huh..but who cares...

Firstly....GAIN WEIGHT!!!!!...gain weight...fat or muscle....basically growing sideways!...I nvr get to grow "bigger"...not in the last 20 years of my life....so i guess this shud be a new year resolution...n yeah...lots of people say i shud eat more...(been there..done tht...)..n 1 fren specifically hinted me to get buffer so tht i could get a gf..=__=..which brings us to our next point..

GET A GF!!!..lawl at this la...havent been thinking on tht part of my life for pretty long...maybe i shud start putting in some effort to look around eh....to appreciate chances n oppurtunities...just so tht i wudn't hav to envy others..lawl....kidding onli....(Sync is my idol wei...he got his gf's house key..me n moomoo were like "wtf.." O__O..)

GET A LIBRARY CARD!!!....oh well....i know i have been in Sunway since my ausmat days....but i still havent get a library card...lol...n they say it's so important to get 1...but who cares la....my assignment marks still high enaf =P...but but...this year i'll try to get 1 la....cos i'm so lazy to apply for 1 for the past few years...hehe..

Tht's all i could think for now la...hahaha...will slowly add on somemore in later posts if got idea...lol..