Weird feeling...

Got this sudden weird feeling tht things are gonna take a better turn.....

suddenly feel a bit happy while working...

I think i'm going crazy lol XD

Just never ends..

I dunno if i'm the only one feeling this but....I always felt tht i havent put enough effort into this or tht...or I could have done it better in some ways....Feels so demanding of myself..in a way it shows tht i'm not even confident in my own capabilities...nvr once hav i felt..."Hey this is good enough..I done my best" =/

Its kind of weird tht...we always think tht our current mentality is sufficient or "perfect"...but if we ever choose to think further...we realised that we're actually many steps behind others or wat we aspire to be =/

These days I'm always thinking..how can i change myself to be better...n if i ever figure tht part out...from where do i find the drive to make tht change in myself...these simple questions (tht I should hav figured out long ago..) yet important to who i'm gonna become...

Always feel tht something is missing....always n always....really do hope someone could convince me tht nothing is missing...lol

Less like a Robot...

Haha ever since i started goin back college medan for cheap lunch....I feel so human again...having the usual lunch with uni gang XD...so much lessss like a robot =P

Eating with my colleagues is fun n all but.....they have expensive taste weih....each meal more than RM10 confirm...sometimes RM20...my wallet oso can cry lo =____=

but but now tht i starting to go back medan.....Phrases like "Sei kau pun"...."Lima setengah" are like music to my ears XD

yes i'm cheapskate i know...but hey...it sure aint easy surviving on own salary weih...wan buy new stuffs oso will think twice now....but it sure feels awesome having lunch with my lecturers n frens =D

Working

Working....surprisingly i wasn't thinking bout the salary i can make from working all these while...I've been thinking a lot lately bout something much more important..

Ive been thinking very hardly bout "What I want"

Kinda sad eh tht even up until know i cant figure out the answer to tht =/
Is it because there's too many options around?...Is it because I've been letting things go its natural way too much?...Is it because I always think tht anything is ok for me?...Or is it just because I dun wan to make a decision myself?.....

Its even funny though thinking back how this issue sparked to my senses....It was while we're having lunch with our Group Exco...Dato Chew (an amazing person =)) just threw tht simple question acros the table at us...n at tht moment...I askedmyself..."Why da hell i nvr even bothered to stop n ask myself tht b4"...It was an awkward situation...then he continued on saying "Its ok (smiling) I just want u all to start thinking bout this"...

The question of "what I want" is just so...bothering lols...but yet...its necessary to really think thru bout it...I've been going on with "Anything la i guess" mentality for a bit too long lol...Shud really start making demands of myself lols..

Loss of me indeed =/

*woo finally updated xD

Business Cycle...

Just realised how much my Uni life is represented in a business cycle pattern...LOL....u know peaks? troughs? depression?....lol....Yeap...after staring at my results for quite some time...I find tht its very much like a business cycle lol...

but ofcos...they say inflation and unemployment rate is a good economic indicator of the business cycle...The indicators in my uni life is a hilarious one thou....ahahahhahaha...even if i tell it to u guys...u wont believe it....but after hours after thinking....I can identify one very strong indicator tht affects the "business cycle" of my uni life so far LOL... xD

the stuffs tht wonders around our mind when we hav nothing better to do lol...XD

Countdown..

AAAAAAaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!

Classes and assignments are over...Happy bout it....but it also means my life as a student is gonna end soon weih...OMG...no matter how much i know bout the importance of closing this chapter of my life, it still cannot compensate for the fact tht i really enjoyed my student life the most =(

Only a month to countdown to the end of my exams...n then a week after tht...It would be the beginning of another whole new life =/ this is one of those times where New does not necessarily means Good weih...I always hear how working life is so taxing and all....I really hope i dun need to start so soon....but i really dun wanna lose this ongoing momentum I'm having now...=/

but i guess now tht its inevitable....all tht's left is for me to properly utilize this precious 1 month I have....this last chapter of my student life...n embrace myself for another whole new beginning =/

Updates!!!

There u go....end of post....k thx bai XD

Joking only =P....

Mid sem break is over....there goes my last uni holiday for the rest of the sem =.= however it was a very fun holiday....Get to see deadly mountain chipmunk twice in a week....(meeting her is like finding the Rosetta Stone...lol..) once is during Easters...was invited to her church at UEP(maze like place) cos she was performing lol....was always wondering what she gonna perform cos she mentioned bruises n stuffs...yeah i was curious...The performance answered my question n i really hav to say its a performance tht kinda touched my heart (the expression poured into the performance is just......speechless...)....n i gotta say...tht sunday I met a lot of nice people lol..greeting me...asking whether they shud assign someone to teman me..A LOT of nice people...hahahhahha....

Second time was thursday...so hard to pull her out from her busy schedule...lol...went n caught a movie....Its Complicated...unexpectedly hilarious XD ...n also got to see her playin ez2dance LOL...after like how long..get to see the best ez2dance player in sunway hahahhaha..until now i still think its a very hard game to play....rather stick to DDR XD...the day was fun...most importantly i was glad tht it was a stress-less day for her....n seeing her smile really made my day =) no matter how her hairstyle changes, glad her smile is still there XD

n now....after holidays...back to assignments...gonna miss these moments..anticipating the next holiday...n focusing on other parts of my life =)


P.S to suyin- I really quit gaming finally and SERIOUSLY XD