Walauuuu 2012 :D

Woooowwwww how long has it been since my last post :D

What really made me come back into blogging was actually thanks to the curiosity I had last night..while thinking about "hey wondering if the "me" last time was the same as the present "me"?" hahaha I guess it was worth it

When I began to track back all the posts since the most recent one in 2010...i began to realise how the personality in the 2010 me slowly change to someone else as I tracked backwards...hahaha talking about divergence..I surprised myself really lol

So much things have changed since then..I wasnt so into gaming anymore..searching for a gf became a lifelong mission (hopefully not lifelong literally)..Work has becoming more demanding of me...And people around me changed too...Its funny to see how we (SRC gang) changed from happy-go-lucky mode to "FML I need to think about future" mode hahaha...Nvrtheless it cant be argued that Changes took places..But its wonderful to know how the Essential part of us which was formed by our past, persevered through time and we're still a fun bunch of people to be with hahaha

What's good in the last few years? I decided to became more flexible with myself :) something I'm proud of..hahaa planning to go Stereosonic, Aussie by end of this year...wakakkaa...then 2 weeks later Zoukout in Singapore...got myself an Iphone...Tht really changed the dimension at which i'm communicating at hahaha..No more SMSes yay!...My mind really opened in 2012..hahaaha I prolly am thinking of dropping my job a while to do some soul searching in future soon :)

What's not so good? I guess I still havent found my passion in life...now this is something I really take seriously...but somehow I just cant find a cause to fight for...A reason to Fight...nor literally..but to be able to pour all my efforts into something I believed in...and sadly till now it's no where to be found haiz..but I'm not giving up just yet hahaha NEVAH

Alright tht's it for the starter of a string of posts yet to come..I know its gonna be worth it few years down the road reading back all these..as these memories dont come by easy :)

Wondering if I could get the others to come back to blogging too haha xD

Seasonal...

Seasonal Friends....

primary school we got primary school friends....secondary school got secondary school friends....n it goes on to uni.....now for me....I just realised i'm slowly drifting apart from those uni frens i know...i did try my part to organize movies n stuffs to prevent the drifting...but it look likes friends are seasonal after all...no matter how hard one could try....people grow apart...

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Naive..

I'm born in a family of 5....father, mother and 2 sisters..I guess tht....since i nvr had a brother in my life...I kinda took friends around me whom are kinda "close" to me as brothers lol..brothers whom u know tht always be your side no matter the situation...

Now i just realise how naive was I at coming to a conclusion like tht lols...

Time for a change..

By change....i mean i plan to get a lala hairstyle this thursday lols...

hahahahhahaa...actually just wanna get a new change lar..not necessarily lala...lols

To be continued...=P

Weird feeling...

Got this sudden weird feeling tht things are gonna take a better turn.....

suddenly feel a bit happy while working...

I think i'm going crazy lol XD

Just never ends..

I dunno if i'm the only one feeling this but....I always felt tht i havent put enough effort into this or tht...or I could have done it better in some ways....Feels so demanding of myself..in a way it shows tht i'm not even confident in my own capabilities...nvr once hav i felt..."Hey this is good enough..I done my best" =/

Its kind of weird tht...we always think tht our current mentality is sufficient or "perfect"...but if we ever choose to think further...we realised that we're actually many steps behind others or wat we aspire to be =/

These days I'm always thinking..how can i change myself to be better...n if i ever figure tht part out...from where do i find the drive to make tht change in myself...these simple questions (tht I should hav figured out long ago..) yet important to who i'm gonna become...

Always feel tht something is missing....always n always....really do hope someone could convince me tht nothing is missing...lol

Less like a Robot...

Haha ever since i started goin back college medan for cheap lunch....I feel so human again...having the usual lunch with uni gang XD...so much lessss like a robot =P

Eating with my colleagues is fun n all but.....they have expensive taste weih....each meal more than RM10 confirm...sometimes RM20...my wallet oso can cry lo =____=

but but now tht i starting to go back medan.....Phrases like "Sei kau pun"...."Lima setengah" are like music to my ears XD

yes i'm cheapskate i know...but hey...it sure aint easy surviving on own salary weih...wan buy new stuffs oso will think twice now....but it sure feels awesome having lunch with my lecturers n frens =D

Working

Working....surprisingly i wasn't thinking bout the salary i can make from working all these while...I've been thinking a lot lately bout something much more important..

Ive been thinking very hardly bout "What I want"

Kinda sad eh tht even up until know i cant figure out the answer to tht =/
Is it because there's too many options around?...Is it because I've been letting things go its natural way too much?...Is it because I always think tht anything is ok for me?...Or is it just because I dun wan to make a decision myself?.....

Its even funny though thinking back how this issue sparked to my senses....It was while we're having lunch with our Group Exco...Dato Chew (an amazing person =)) just threw tht simple question acros the table at us...n at tht moment...I askedmyself..."Why da hell i nvr even bothered to stop n ask myself tht b4"...It was an awkward situation...then he continued on saying "Its ok (smiling) I just want u all to start thinking bout this"...

The question of "what I want" is just so...bothering lols...but yet...its necessary to really think thru bout it...I've been going on with "Anything la i guess" mentality for a bit too long lol...Shud really start making demands of myself lols..

Loss of me indeed =/

*woo finally updated xD

Business Cycle...

Just realised how much my Uni life is represented in a business cycle pattern...LOL....u know peaks? troughs? depression?....lol....Yeap...after staring at my results for quite some time...I find tht its very much like a business cycle lol...

but ofcos...they say inflation and unemployment rate is a good economic indicator of the business cycle...The indicators in my uni life is a hilarious one thou....ahahahhahaha...even if i tell it to u guys...u wont believe it....but after hours after thinking....I can identify one very strong indicator tht affects the "business cycle" of my uni life so far LOL... xD

the stuffs tht wonders around our mind when we hav nothing better to do lol...XD

Countdown..

AAAAAAaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!

Classes and assignments are over...Happy bout it....but it also means my life as a student is gonna end soon weih...OMG...no matter how much i know bout the importance of closing this chapter of my life, it still cannot compensate for the fact tht i really enjoyed my student life the most =(

Only a month to countdown to the end of my exams...n then a week after tht...It would be the beginning of another whole new life =/ this is one of those times where New does not necessarily means Good weih...I always hear how working life is so taxing and all....I really hope i dun need to start so soon....but i really dun wanna lose this ongoing momentum I'm having now...=/

but i guess now tht its inevitable....all tht's left is for me to properly utilize this precious 1 month I have....this last chapter of my student life...n embrace myself for another whole new beginning =/

Updates!!!

There u go....end of post....k thx bai XD

Joking only =P....

Mid sem break is over....there goes my last uni holiday for the rest of the sem =.= however it was a very fun holiday....Get to see deadly mountain chipmunk twice in a week....(meeting her is like finding the Rosetta Stone...lol..) once is during Easters...was invited to her church at UEP(maze like place) cos she was performing lol....was always wondering what she gonna perform cos she mentioned bruises n stuffs...yeah i was curious...The performance answered my question n i really hav to say its a performance tht kinda touched my heart (the expression poured into the performance is just......speechless...)....n i gotta say...tht sunday I met a lot of nice people lol..greeting me...asking whether they shud assign someone to teman me..A LOT of nice people...hahahhahha....

Second time was thursday...so hard to pull her out from her busy schedule...lol...went n caught a movie....Its Complicated...unexpectedly hilarious XD ...n also got to see her playin ez2dance LOL...after like how long..get to see the best ez2dance player in sunway hahahhaha..until now i still think its a very hard game to play....rather stick to DDR XD...the day was fun...most importantly i was glad tht it was a stress-less day for her....n seeing her smile really made my day =) no matter how her hairstyle changes, glad her smile is still there XD

n now....after holidays...back to assignments...gonna miss these moments..anticipating the next holiday...n focusing on other parts of my life =)


P.S to suyin- I really quit gaming finally and SERIOUSLY XD

New sem...1st impression....

1st impression of a new sem?.....gonna be complicated D:

complicated for so many reasons....cos its my last...it really feels like i hav a lot to catch up on...its like i'm running out of time to do all those things i wanted to do during my uni life...really....it feels one of those moments where we leave our assignments to last minute to finish lol

n just like every assignment...we always dunno where to start from XD...maybe i shud come up with a list i wanna do before the end of this sem...hahahha....n try fit everything into these few months...I think i can already see a few categories of stuffs i wanna do lol....such as having makan gatherings...n yeah my last competition for cod4...go somewhere outstation relak....so many more..


I havent even gotten my library card yet..omg..hahahhaa

My LAST sem....nooooooooo

ITS MY LAST SEM liao!!!! i feel so old =.=
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n its gonna be my LAST TOURNEY liao oso =.=
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cant imagine my student life gonna end soon..
seriously
If i hav the choice,
I would want it to last longer
So tht i could hav more memories of this wonderful phase of my life
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but
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this is reality
n i hav no choice but to accept it D:
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*I havent even get my library card yet even after all these years lol*
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n also last year's impossible resolutions D:
doubt i'll get it done this year too xD
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gonna be 22 soon.......nuuuuuuuuu
working.....nuuuuuuuu
missed out on so many things....nuuuuuuu
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NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU D:

Malas update =P

I find tht i rarely update this blog even with all the time i hav on my hands now...hahahha...its like i forgotten bout this site dy..but ofcos i wouldnt =)

I only hav 1 purpose on my mind when i made this blog...which is to try my best to retain all the best moments in my life n put it in this blog..so tht one day in the future I can look back n smile =) the fear of knowing tht i'm just a human being and i'm incapable of remembering all those small things in life really drove me into setting up this blog....its like when u hav such a wonderful day with a certain someone...u wud really want to make sure every detail is not forgotten cos IT IS tht significant! =/

2009 ended in a satisfying way..on new year's eve with frens like jeff, jason n kenix...ofcos with jeff in the party ...obviously the day is about kantoi-ing him...jason n kenix also played along pretty well XD...while waiting for kenix to lepas kerja, we decided to go bowling lawl...hilarious tht jeff couldnt bowl straight (cos he's not xD)...Monkey jason is good at it =.=....i'm..er.....ok ok at it la xD....

then after tht we go teman Jeff shopping lol....n this is where the fun begins la...the Origin of the 95% spandex joke...when jeff decided to buy his Trunks on new year's eve just cos its cheaper due to year end sale...he accidentally revealed his fetish for spandex lawl...xD...a joke tht lasted for quite some time xD...still ongoing xD

after shopping..Kenix lepas kerja n pergi main vroom vroom (he calls tht Initial D stage 5 =.=)...n kena tapau by a guy with 197 wins =.=...tht means he spent at least RM400 on the game in the arcade for god knows how long weih...after tht we went to camp on CP7 for fireworks lol...not bad at all...too bad saya bukan cameraman (poor guy mah..) after the fireworks thingy....we go arcade again LOL....damn no life...XD...conclusion: Jeff is good at bishibashi somehow =.=.....but i beat him in DDR xD how unexpected Wakakkakakaka

basically tht's Dalai's new year's eve....it wasnt bout goin to watch fireworks lol..its just bout the company n all those sohai things tht happened in between lol...hahahhaa

Black and white...

Holidays...can be fun...n boring as well...depending on how u spend the time..

for me....right after tht wonderful day.....the days ahead looks so black n white =/

must start plannin some stuffs to do dy!!

Best day...

Today is DA best day of my life...n i shall always remember the 5th of December 2009.

n I owe it to none other than Suyin!!! who made "sacrifices" just to make the day interesting and worthwhile =) so much effort was put into the day..n i definitely neeed it after 6 months of no-lifeness in college lol...I gotta say my mind is kinda more opened too now...din realised i've been missing so much stuffs in life all these while...really makes me rethink bout the way i shud use my time...lol..

really really really enjoyed it =) n kinda touched lol

thx a lot!! =)

Get well soon btw =P

Scar..

Clicking on myvu website n checking my results yesterday seriously left another scar on my mind...perhaps for the next few years to come...even though its just a credit..but the pain is knowing tht it was entirely my fault tht i oni scored below average..n things like these really stay in my mind for a very very long time =/..n tht kinda sux..

can someone teach me a way to get over these kinda stuffs?....for my entire life...i alwiz find it so hard to get over disappointing events of my life...=/

sigh....

Banyak kali doh....

For so so many times...when i hav problems...people will always tell me..."chill la...sure can 1".."sure work out in the end 1!!".."Sure can dy la"....

yeah i know they're trying to give me some last glimpse of hope...but so often in my heart i always think tht...they're saying this cos they couldn't possibly tell me tht the world is gonna end...n then when i think tht way...i really dunno who to really ask for opinions cus everyone will say the same stuffs =/...somehow somehow...n somehow i'm jus looking for any differences in these responses tht i'm slowly narrowing myself to a little corner...=/

why am i so negative 1...=.=.....

Waiting...

Life is about waiting... =) and everyone is waiting for something in their life...=)

Have u guys seen the movie called "The Terminal"?..directed by steven spielberg..with tom hanks in it....One of my favourite movies...can watch it more than 10 times n still wont get bored..XD

if u seen it..then u sure faham apa saya cakap...

I'm waiting too =)

OMGWTFBBQLOL EXAMS OVER!!!

OMGWTFBBQLOL!!!

Finally over T-T...i paling tak suka this kind of overstretched exams..=.=...can kena stroke at any time in between exams...lucky for me....i got 3 open book exams this sem..wakkakakaa...but open books means higher cost of printing materials to bring in..bleh...

oh well..oh well...not thts over.....its time to open my "little black book" n chase people for "hutang"...lol....starting off...would be a free meal at Jogoya....muahahahhahaha...i love my black book....n following tht is SOMEBODY who promise to bring me somewhere....but until now i dunno where is tht "somewhere" cos it is undisclosed....=/...very very curious...hmmmm....

for now...tht is wat i'm expecting...hehehee...n also starting the treatment for my tulang liao...zzz....first month must go 3 times a week....zzzz.....sien...

lalala...holiday.....youtube.....snsd...lol....random...