Black and white...

Holidays...can be fun...n boring as well...depending on how u spend the time..

for me....right after tht wonderful day.....the days ahead looks so black n white =/

must start plannin some stuffs to do dy!!

Best day...

Today is DA best day of my life...n i shall always remember the 5th of December 2009.

n I owe it to none other than Suyin!!! who made "sacrifices" just to make the day interesting and worthwhile =) so much effort was put into the day..n i definitely neeed it after 6 months of no-lifeness in college lol...I gotta say my mind is kinda more opened too now...din realised i've been missing so much stuffs in life all these while...really makes me rethink bout the way i shud use my time...lol..

really really really enjoyed it =) n kinda touched lol

thx a lot!! =)

Get well soon btw =P

Scar..

Clicking on myvu website n checking my results yesterday seriously left another scar on my mind...perhaps for the next few years to come...even though its just a credit..but the pain is knowing tht it was entirely my fault tht i oni scored below average..n things like these really stay in my mind for a very very long time =/..n tht kinda sux..

can someone teach me a way to get over these kinda stuffs?....for my entire life...i alwiz find it so hard to get over disappointing events of my life...=/

sigh....

Banyak kali doh....

For so so many times...when i hav problems...people will always tell me..."chill la...sure can 1".."sure work out in the end 1!!".."Sure can dy la"....

yeah i know they're trying to give me some last glimpse of hope...but so often in my heart i always think tht...they're saying this cos they couldn't possibly tell me tht the world is gonna end...n then when i think tht way...i really dunno who to really ask for opinions cus everyone will say the same stuffs =/...somehow somehow...n somehow i'm jus looking for any differences in these responses tht i'm slowly narrowing myself to a little corner...=/

why am i so negative 1...=.=.....

Waiting...

Life is about waiting... =) and everyone is waiting for something in their life...=)

Have u guys seen the movie called "The Terminal"?..directed by steven spielberg..with tom hanks in it....One of my favourite movies...can watch it more than 10 times n still wont get bored..XD

if u seen it..then u sure faham apa saya cakap...

I'm waiting too =)

OMGWTFBBQLOL EXAMS OVER!!!

OMGWTFBBQLOL!!!

Finally over T-T...i paling tak suka this kind of overstretched exams..=.=...can kena stroke at any time in between exams...lucky for me....i got 3 open book exams this sem..wakkakakaa...but open books means higher cost of printing materials to bring in..bleh...

oh well..oh well...not thts over.....its time to open my "little black book" n chase people for "hutang"...lol....starting off...would be a free meal at Jogoya....muahahahhahaha...i love my black book....n following tht is SOMEBODY who promise to bring me somewhere....but until now i dunno where is tht "somewhere" cos it is undisclosed....=/...very very curious...hmmmm....

for now...tht is wat i'm expecting...hehehee...n also starting the treatment for my tulang liao...zzz....first month must go 3 times a week....zzzz.....sien...

lalala...holiday.....youtube.....snsd...lol....random...

Revival?....

So so so so so busy~~~~~~~~ n so so so so little time~~~~

At least VU nite is over XD...wonderful night..even though many mistakes on my part =P..paiseh paiseh...too nerve wracking maybe...lol..at least the lightings n Ms.VU candidates are pretty~~ XD something to relief the nervous-ness for the night...hahahahahhaa XD

but now tht its over..means have to focus on Assignments dy...=.=...sien lo!!! I can foresee a tsunami coming if nothing is done soon enaf...=.=...die lar die lar...how la how!! someone must teach me LFIS dy wei....tht 1 paling close now...=.=

N ofcos...hav to bring forward a plan...a plan to stop my competitive activities...lol..at first thinkin after this sem (after Oct competition) then stop shud be ok dy...but i think hav to stop now la....cos things are looking "dark" right now lol...not so bright~~

lala tht's it after AFK for so long~~ will AFK for another few weeks maybe haha

Gembira-ness...

I havent seen someone so happy n excited so long dy...it really made me feel happy oso inside me...n to know tht i contributed to tht happiness....it made me much more happier..

When i gave the present tht day...I tot it would just be a normal "Thanks a lot I appreciate it"...BUT...when she opened the book n went thru it...she just went "omg...awesomeness..(n many other adjectives..).."....I myself....dun really know how to respond at tht time...cos i'm so not used to it...seriously!!...nvr seen a really happy "fangirl" (so to speak..lol) like tht for quite some time....or i think it's nvr la lol...maybe cos i don usually buy present for anyone lol..(or nvr =.=..poor mah lol..)..so so i really stun a bit la...lol....XD

but but really...I think the present really made her day...n ofcos my day too =P...

Gembira-ness~~~

chicken rice...

Chicken rice has now become a trigger to my memory...to wat sort of memory?....a funny n disappointing memory at the same time.....whenever i think bout it...i can feel damn phail...as a guy...=.=...but yet...its so funny...lol...

omg....ss14...Kar Heong chicken rice....omg omg omg omg omg D:

Nightmare period...

Its tht Week 4,5,6 syndrome again...=.=...

assignments.....mid sem test.....n ofcos....more Assignments....n then when i think bout other stuffs besides college works....i feel like fainting dy wei...everyday day i always thought to myself...how good it is if i could just skip all these responsibilities...=/ but oh well....its practically impossible so i gave up on the idea on doing nothing....cos doing nothing will give me lots of "N"s on my transcripts =.=...n tht's bad in many ways...

so yeah...i'm forced to take things in my stride...but tht's really easier said than done...honestly...i dunno if i'm more suitable to this 50 coursework 50 exam style or the 100 exam style of uni life...=/...both have its pros n cons...but oh well...not like Fate gave me much options anyways...so i'm practically stuck with the 50/50 option...even though things been working out fine...but i still feel..somewhat "bo soong" lol...or maybe its the fact tht i'm just plain lazy...=P

ah well...back to work.....

Noooo...

New sem started!!....

Holiday was enjoyable thou i expected more =/ but oh well...better than din enjoy at all....

n omg...CBF class is 3 hours straight....=.=..........

die la die la die la....

Left Hand..Right Hand...

Assuming a right-hander...The Left hand symbolises tht which is subjected to...and the Right hand symbolises tht which would materialise...and of course vice versa for left handers (if i'm not mistaken...lol..anyways...)

Some people believe tht a person's destiny could be changed...while some others think tht it's already set out n u will just end up in tht same destination...I personnally favor the former =P...oh well...as i had mentioned...the future is still subjected to your choices made in the present...n what it would materialises into could actually changed...tht sounds like good new to lots of people...but to me...i feel its somewhat a risky line to walk onto =/..

Think bout this...If u started out in life briallantly..yur grades are good...people like you...n the future is actually bright!..sounds good...but the future is still subjected to yur choices..just imagine what a slight mistake could do to everything =/...I used to hav this fear....the fear tht things are going too well for me...sounds kinda odd rite...its just like waiting for tht Big Depression in life...after all no such thing as "guaranteed" right..(except for Tax and Death....nth else besides those lol XD..) BUT ofcos having this fear drove me to "occasionally"(sad to say tht) go beyond my limits..n actually putting some effort into my works..=.=...better than nth rite..=P

...And still...knowing with effort, we could still carve out our own path..even though we're not brought up to think tht way!...its interesting how some people became successful just becos they were brought up in a way tht..they know they live to redefine the world..n tht thinking really made a difference in their lives compared to others...n this brings me back to my point bout carving out our own path..=)

If u think your position is already determined in this world....by all means go defy it...go for something u want to achieve..dont just stop at where u are now..Even your palms can tell u tht..lol!

So free....

Exams over...i so free...but still lazy to update blog....XD XD...lalala...

Just realised i'm 21 this year....hahaha....but honestly...who would believe me when i say i'm 21 this year....haihz...if i say i'm 21 to a person i just know...surely the fellow will give the "look" 1...nvr failed b4 wei....me n my frens tried it on so many people dy....ALL say i freaking look like 18 or younger....tht kinda denied me lots of stuffs rite...

I mean....when girls look at me...first impression sure "another childish teenager.."....sure 1 i tell u!!..guarantee punya...i heard so many times b4 dy from frens..."hey i used to think u're childish arh...but actually....*blah blah blah*.."....sure got use the phrase "used to think" 1....=.=..damn unfair for me rite...just cos i look younger oni wei..

Here's the funny part....after my 21st bday rite...my fren off n on will tell me.."so now u're an old man dy la...21 dy..."....then i replied balik...

"hahahhaa....but u still look older than me right?

XD...The End...

Rose of May...

Feel like visiting my blog suddenly....barely took a peek at it for the last few weeks..=)

Just for u guys to know...the title of this Blog "Loss of Me" is actually a name of a soundtrack in FF9..=P..n to some other fans...it is also known as "Rose of May"...Really really one of my all time favourite Final Fantasy soundtrack XD



Take a pause for the moment...Just click play....n close your eyes....n do some self reflections.....



Were the last few months enjoyable?...meaningful?...

Have those months brought joy or meaning to other's life?...

Were u being yurself all the while?...

Or u were wearing a mask all the time?....





Ohm~~ XD
(FInal Fantasy IX..Loss of Me @ Rose of May by Nobuo Uematsu)

Kiss Floor~~

How many of you understand wat tht means wei?.....bet most of u dont...XD....

it means.....Exams are near...n all of us r so doomed!!! XD

YaY!!...Kiss Floor!!!

(going nuts....dont mind me...)

Berat sikit dy...

I happen to be curious.....=P...then i go weigh myself on the weighin scale i had at home...n i found out i am 55 kg now!! o.O.....hard to believe for me...cos 1 month ago i was still around 51 kg for like last 2 years....n 50 for those years before!!.....I practically gained 4 kgs in 1 month ++ wei XD!!...tht's like....a miracle tht happened to me!!

I mean...it was like...I dont notice any changes everyday....then suddenly something actually has changed without me knowing!...lol...=.=...

imagine the guys with the problem of gaining weight for the last 20 years of his life...suddenly gain 4 kgs in such a short time...its like WOW!! XD....n u guys are complaining bout trying to lose weight n lose those fats....me on the other hand worrying bout gaining some pounds..lol...irony....

1 day must go celebrate....XD....

Tekanan...lol

so long din update.....why?.....cos damn busy...=.=...with so many stuffs....especially assignments n mini tests la...din seem so mini to me anyways...lol....

the best part is.....there's MORE to come...=.=....

But anyways...there's always more than bad news la rite...also got good news 1!!...VU got 3rd placing overall in Sports Carnival..=P....hehehe...geng leh....I contributed to help VU get 1 gold in Foosball!!...nyahahahha...even after 6 months tak main langsung....i still can contribute...XD...actually thanks to other teammates la...haha...imba winning streak...XD....n ofcos..the best part was tht...tht nite there's also carrom n chess going on....n both got Silver...XD...so added up lots of points to the overall standing la...hahahahaha....finally something happy to think about..lol...

n ofcos.....Pokemon on my phone is fun!!.....lol...=.=....

Decisions again...

Some people say i got the face to berjaya 1....yeah ofcos i'm kinda relieved to hear something like tht...but when i really look back at myself...i realised i can be so so far from tht =/...n better yet....so many other parts of me are telling me the same thing...imagine having the ability to make it n knowing it...but not doing anything much bout it....I think i really need a sledgehammer to knock my head at times...=.=...gahh....

I always procrastinate n procrastinate for countless times...n when it comes to datelines...I almost always hear a voice from inside me telling me tht "if u're gonna slack again..i'm gonna take away yur gifts"...n then I would just suddenly "wake" up n finish my stuffs n finish my studies for an exam few days later...n things would still stay good n above average...n then I would always wondered...If i done something similar earlier..would I not have achieved something better?...Do i tend to rely on tht too much through out my life?...n with THT many wake up calls i have through out my life...i always wondered when it would stop..n suddenly everything would just be taken away...(just imagining.....)...like a price paid for not playing by the rules...=/

Everything comes with a price....a success in the future requires one too...n it differs from 1 person to another...I wonder...Wat edxactly is the price i have to pay?...

Comfort zone...

I love staying in my comfort zone...i mean...who doesnt??...everyone has their own comfort zone..tht's y everyone remains in their place...n everyone remains the same as everyone...it's like.."U're special...just like everyone else..."...lol..it's kinda funny tho..tht (i think..) the general rule to ever succeed or to achieve something special...one has to get out of their comfort zone n doin the right stuffs...the ironic part is tht it sounds simple...n yet...many people dont give a damn bout it...=/...

another random thought tht came to mind...is how i found people to be afraid of being successful ..yeap...sounds weird....but people are Afraid of being successful!...the general crowd subconsciously perceives being on top as being separated from others...n its kinda true tht when u get to a certain position...there will be a distance between u n yur usual group...cos the general crowd is at the lower position...n people know tht!..n thus..whenever a position is offered...its really common to see people pushing the position here n there...giving any possible excuses...just because they fear being distanced...sad again....but it is happening...People are afraid of being successful...haihz...

Ofcos...this does not apply to everyone...but it is happening to most people...comfort zones..fear of success..it happens subconsciously...even though some people are clearly conscious bout their wants to being someone different or achieving something better...they still repeat wat they do every single day...every single month n year...hoping tht repeating previous 'failures' (unknown to them..)...would eventually bear fruit...

The question in my mind as of now is....If anyone really intended to be successful...why doesnt he/she do something different bout it...different from wat he usually does...different from wat others(who continuosly achieved average results..) would do...n eventually find his/her edge to succeed in the future? =/

Pink~~

Today got CIMB lecture series....n I was the emcee in Pink lol....must be a first time to many people's eyes....XD...when people ask why pink...just hentam n say I in love lo~~ lol....but is it true??...i dunno....XD

How??...

For quite some time....I finally accepted the fact tht people dont think alike...or learn things the same way....not just realising it by wat i was told...but rather...to actually know tht people has their own way of doing things...their own way of being efficient...learning things in their efficient manner...it's like why a economics person dont understand wat an accounting person is doing...it's like they dont see the pattern there n catch things tht fast...n this brings me to a point tht whenever someone asks me to teach them on a subject...

Kinda funny la...a question which seemed easy to me...last time i alwiz wondered why others dont see it the same way....to me it's just LIKE THT...but others were like..."like tht meh?"...n tht issue used to get me thinking...n when i realised it...I used to think twice whenever someone asks me to teach them...cos i'm just afraid i would make things more difficult for them...but people used to take it tht i'm not willing to teach...oh well...life goes on....=)

Fun-ness...lol

Tuesday of sem break is fun....XD....got to makan lunch with Nat, mike n ryan...then later more people gather to watch movie...=)...n on tht day...i finally revealed a side of me i nvr revealed to any of them b4...LOL...ofcos they found out....n i wont speak of it here either...all i can say is.....Monash student lose to Sunway student...XD..wakakkakaa...

Saturday..XD....Cyberfusion event..too bad the booth chicks are not really tht impressive...haiz...disappointed...n Jeff din get the hp number he wanted..lol...however...Project suddenly ranked top 8 in cyberfusion tourney...XD....imba~~~

fun fun fun...lol.....

Mid sem break!

The moment our CL exam was done...MID SEM BREAK BEGINS! Wakakaka

I gotta say tht my mid sem break started pretty damn well eh...cos the project gang sudah ajak untuk makan banyak tht saturday night =P...ofcos the makan was later tht evening...n afternoon we're just fooling around in SRC...XD...surprising however....wasn't really the SRC part or the makan part....it was rather when we're in the car....=.=...lol...lots of things happened...=.=

Just when u think tht when people start to enter uni dy...they might become more stable...but these guys just dont! =.=....seriously man!...when we all enter lim's car...the 'fun' started with Fat getting possessed by some rockstar soul =.=...seriously wei!..n i suspect he purposely keep tht hairstyle just to shake it wei!...lol..oh well not onli tht la...the whole day the gang just talked about pink shirt girl n white shirt girl...n smoking girls...n at the same time with Jeff n Fat making tht 'semi-orgasmic' look when they talk bout it..(pink shirt n white shirt girl..)..LOL....I m not jokin...=.=..

oh well ofcos the fun just wasnt from the conversation...as we reached OUG plaza...something creepy happened...suddenly i felt a hand on my shoulder n when i look to my right..I did not see a ghost...but it was something worse...it was JEFF making tht "i'm gonna kiss u" look n just few inches away from me onli...OFCOS I FREAKED OUT LA!...=.=..thank lord jason is normal...(he's on my left tht time...)..nvm nvm...then we go makan chinese food in OUG...n as usual...Fat is praising pork like heaven...Jeff still talking bout girls...=.=...forever 1...n jason still is normal...lol...Lim kena panggil japanese rocket..=.=...oh well...

wat's more fun tht nite is...after makan dinner...we go makan again...makan pork noodle this time..lol...n i regretted something this time...i took the wrong seat...a motorbike was blocking a certain view *cough cough*...n yeah...Jeff is still making tht dreamy look...n we have more Jeff moments today!.."The Ka-chik thing"!..n the "Shocking thing"!...XD..kena from us the whole nite wei...lol...n Lim kena one of the best quote ever in the car (forgot to mention..).."It's hard to face the problem when the problem is your face"..ZOMG XD...imba~~~

All in all....it was a fun day....n a fun ride in Lim's car...XD...definitely enjoyed it...definitely...

Week 5..lalala....

This week was.....EPIC....lol...XD

firstly....there's this anticipation of 2 friggin exams next week =.= nuff said...

n then....VUBC cuci kereta untuk orang!...hahaha..most of the customers very satisfied with their shining car...until the next morning it started raining heavily...lol...feel sad for them...hahaha

n then...there's this backstabbing incident i heard from a fren of mine...i found the whole situation just plain sad la...why wud people do such things to others for no valid reason =.=....&*%*$#@$

We have PFP block teaching this week too!...n thank lord the australian lecturer is so much better than Mr.Onion..yahoo! we all enjoyed the lecturer's Count Dracula accent n ofcos his sharing of his knowledge on financial planning...the whole lecture seem more like those seminars people pay to attend..lol...cos he is tht good!

n yeah....I baru balik from pyramid only...nope...not shoppin or movies...but Body Pump class...N I survived!!! =.= woohoo!!!...lol....playing around with small weights for 1 hour really can push a person to a limit wei....now only i believe...=.=....luckily i smart n din let my ego took over....started with the smaller weights 1st...n glad i made the right decision...XD

Tht's it.....i think tomoro cant walk up the stairs dy...=.=

A wonderful time...

today....(actually yesterday now...)..had a really nice time with the Project guys and also ofcos mike nat Fat too lol...ex-projects lol...anyways the fun started as soon as we met at SRC..haha XD

It all started when I imba-rpd-ed during tdm HAHA...i oso wondering why i so imba...lol..."Kill Chilling!! Kill Chilling only!!"...lol....anyways..we even tried dota after tht...haha..lagi epic la tht 1...the moment i see Lampu & Cahaya....turn back n run away on the spot wei =.=...choco too fake dy...=.=...after the dota session....we all head to pyramid for MOVIE!!...has been a long time since the last movie i watched wei...n we decided to watch "SEX DRIVE"..lol...

The show was hilarious n all...but too bad government cut so many scenes tht it could have been so much better =.=....but anyways...the government missed 1 part tho! n i think we all agreed tht was one of the best part..lol XD..(i mean...in a funny way ofcos o.O...)...there's also tht blardy sarcastic fellow in the show too lol...

soon after tht...we decided tht our wallet is a bit too "big" for the week...so we went Manhattan Fish Market to makan dinner =.=...n we talked bout all sorts of things la..such as Jeff & Johan's moments...lol...the Kuantan boy & the Chinese boy...we even touched on topics like circumcision too wtf lol....n Nat was the only girl there listenin to all these from 9 guys =.=...I dunno wat else to say la....the whole evening was just enjoyable n fun thx to these bunch of....(i dunno wat word to use....)..oh well it's fun...tht's it...HAHAha..

why why why....

when i was asked those questions..."why la u din....."...bla bla bla....i just realised....why i din do so ho...it seems so logic to do certain things but somehow we just dont do it n I realised tht those kind of things are happenin to me...

It's really odd isnt it?...let's say we know it's perfectly logic n rational n nothing to lose to do something...but yet in our mind...something is holding us back...we know it's just odd tht it's holding us back...but yet we don do it n tht's how it is la...

Finding myself in the situation just makes me wonder why summore...or maybe the brain's just making up excuses to hold us back?....or maybe the lack of experience in the subject matter is holding us back?....I dunno which it is for me..=(...

Bored?...

I'm bored...so i went to Jaslyn's blog...n i tried the personality test...n this is how it went..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Seems pretty true in a way for me...i can even vouch for some of the statements there oso cos I really think its true in my case =)..but ofcos I wonder wat others think eh..o.O...from how u guys see it....is it true?????

Stuffs to do in the mean time....

weee...this sem is gonna be filled with stuffs to do!..the team is revamped...vubc hopefully revamped oso...=.=....n my life finally stroke a balance..lol..(go figure tht out yurselves..lol...)

Lazing around....

I'm a lazy person..n i admit it....XD...

since primary.....I barely hand in my homeworks...any of it...n yeah consequence is i kena punish a lot oso la...secondary oso....pre-u oso....hahaha...i really dunno why la...but i just don want to do homework wei =.=...i remember during my secondary years....form 4 or 5 like tht....I took Bahasa Cina....n I only written 3 chinese essays onli =.=....u know when is it??....1st test..mid-year test...and Trials....oh yeah...n ofcos...there's Spm too...tht makes 4 essays...LOL..I got B3 in the end...dammit...if onli i done 1 or 2 more..maybe cud have gotten A2....=.=...nola jk onli...hahaha

Anyways...not doin homework is not all tht bad rite....kena marah a bit onli mah...but ofcos doesn't look good in front of others la =P...but but but...in the end its the result tht matters rite?..haha..it's not tht i'm born lazy or anythin k...or else i would be obese la..lol...nola...just tht there are other matters which I would rather pour my efforts into...I oso can be a person who will strive to do everything he can just to get something he wans k...I remember joinin the marching squad during NS...tht was a good example wei..i remembered how hot the sun is...but i still go on...even though the back of my neck turned brown cos i forgot to put sunblock there =.=...lolz

My assignments n tutorial exercises oso...unless the situation desparate enaf...i oso wont bother much =.=...somehow...i feel tht things have to change a bit la...rite?...haha...but nvm..this year i got lots of things i hope to achieve...this shall be one of them...hahaha..

Start of a sem...

It's another sem...n it just makes me feel more n more depressed....not tht I'm not looking forward into this sem...but i just realized i only got about a year n a half left in uni

I just somehow feel i wasted my youth la...it's gone man...ofcos there are memorable times here n there...but just somehow wished I could do more...maybe play some instruments...learn some martial arts....but somehow in the end..I ended up with the art of "scoring without studying" =.= my life is tht sad wei....

But yeah..even admist all those hours of life i missed...it's better late than nvr la...at least i got to do something i really enjoy doing last few years in uni...Foos n Gaming!...haha..i know some of u out there will condemn me in the foosing part =.=...but hey..i still enjoy it k..just tht the uni took it away from me..=.=..N also Gaming is still ongoing with the Projects...hahaha...

n those will still go on this year....n also will be expecting the usual "lunching" sessions =P..really missed "lunching" sessions..xD..n ofcos somehow miraculously i hope i will enjoy helpin vubc with this year's activities.miraculous becos i usually don't like these stuffs..but still do it anyway...lol...n yeah...i shud get a library card..=.=..how unusual for a scholarship student to not have library card eh...lol

So near yet so far...

Just when i think i'm so close to realizing one of my new year resolution...

I realised tht i'm gonna hav to wait till year end to achieve it!!!...zomg....geram-nya....

nvm...i know this is an opportunity for me....this gives me a year time to prepare for it!! xD to make it memorable!!..lol...new year resolution mah...waiting till year end is nth!!..xD


(I shall be buffed up by then!!...lol xD..u wait...)

Concern...

Class starting next monday!!!....how sad....at first i'm complaining how long this holiday is...now i'm complaining how short it suddenly becomes =(...suddenly my frens are flying back to their unis in aus dy...this holiday quite "short" oso leh...

now tht class is gonna start....MY only concern is.....

none other than...

VUBC!!!...

hohoho....sei mou....ms.Christine n ms.Samantha haunting me bout it for so long...not enough...ms.Lee suddenly made a creepy joke bout me taking on the president position...not funny at all =.=..must avoid tht situation at all cost....i just wanna be a happy quiet committee member only...leave those big positions to someone who's more "mulia" than me =.=..scholarship student still human 1 k....i oso wan a normal life wei =.=...

oh well....

Expecting something better...

I gonna wait till March...or maybe end of March...if still there isn't any improvements...I'll just quit...end of story...wanna find more freedom else where....

Confidence n choices....

When we make a choice...there's got to be some reason behind those choices rite?..or else life would be totally random la...the choice i'm talkin here about is...let's say we have choice between going with plan A or plan B...n plan A is Hard to achieve but with high returns....n plan B is easy but satisfactory returns....normally which would you go for?....

Tht question eventually leads to the next point of my topic..which is Confidence..(in my opinion la..)..If u think u can handle plan A..obviously u would go for it...but let's say u're not so sure...u don really think it's within your capabilities...then u would go for satisfactory level which is plan B lo...fair enough...sounds logic to me la...

Ok now...here's something to relate to...when a person gets a bf/gf...some people might think that they're very grateful for having a bf/gf..or someone who likes them.."Wah got someone like me wo...I couldn't ask for more wei."..being grateful is 1 thing...it sounded like he/she doesn't deserve an actual choice..(i stress tht grateful is 1 thing..but this issue is another..)..as satisfactory is enough..somehow or rather...in my opinion...tht shouldn't be the way things work out rite?..i mean...we all deserve a choice..as in anything...nothing should hinder us in making these choices..we all should have tht confidence and really go for what we really want...n not what we think our "level" deserve rite?...or else...we might actually regret when we look back into the years...rite?...

Of cos i'm not implying tht we should think n doubt our choices now la...ofcos it's a blessing to hav someone u like to feel the same way towards u too...but sometimes in some part of our lives..this issue do appear in some people's life i think...n i don think people should just "Ok la...will settle for this la..."...we should actually go beyond tht la...anyways just my opinion onli =)

So guys...Valentines coming..have a great Valentine...and don't let anything to prevent u from getting the "One" to celebrate a happy Valentines day..If u wan it...just go for it!! xD

(my thoughts are kinda..."strange" oso...even in my own opinion xD)

Changing some stuffs..

I was just thinking whether i should change any part of my blog layout....hmm...if i wanna do so....where should I start ho?...

I remember some people mentioning bout the lack of photos in the blog...lol...can't blame me right...I don't have a digicam or SLR like other rich kids mah...wat to do....maybe i'll try to work harder to get 1?...see 1st la...see 1st...

hmm...bout the main title...dunno i shud change or not...cos it's like so damn nice wei...why la change...the background (blue FF8 background) is actually part of a bigger wallpaper i made few years ago...haha lol...Cannot find on internet 1!!!..to be specific ..it was made when i was Form 5 lol....then just add the words "Loss of me" there only..senang aje...Then again...some people say the title looks like for some emo blog but my blog not emo 1...haha lol....so how?...either i change the title...or i become more emo...lol...which one easier leh ho...lol

OHYA...i remember sumthin...maybe the cursor must change oso...I really like "somebody's" blog cursor wei...(tht person arh..)got starry thing trailing behind 1...damn addictive wei looking at it...lol...maybe change to tht ho...hmm..think 1st...

N last thing...the way I write....dunno whether okay or not...haha..but ohwell it's my blog...ofcos Okay lar..haha...lol..then why i write this part ho...lol.....

tht's it!..maybe will change sumthing soon...haha...

New Year again?..lol...cina punya...

Wish everybody a happy CNY!!...Come to my house if u can find it!! lol XD...

it's the time to collect angpau n recover modal for last year...hahaha....n oso to meet relatives n gamble a lot....hahahaha...hopefully can meet up with frens n play mahjong oso la...hehe...additional income mah...

kinda funny when i come to think of it....why do we need a specific reason like CNY to visit relatives house or frens house....we shud be able to just go only rite?...oh well...the society has changed...everything oso need reason....CNY for family...Mother's day for mother...father's day for father...lol..means other days can disrespect them n don't hav to buy stuffs for them =.= ...n after CNY is Valentines....N i'm pretty sure...everyone buy presents for their loved ones only because it's valentines day n not because they plan to buy gifts from the beginning just because they feel like buying 1 =( doesn't sound really nice when it's pointed out eh....

for example.."why buy chocolate for me?"..."Valentines day mah..."....LOL...tht simple...

I personally think it shud be like..."why buy chocolate for me?".."Because i knew u wud like it..." or "Tot u wud like it..." =)

but ofcos i do know people who buy gifts just because they feel like buying gifts for their loved ones...n hats off to them =P...some guy even told he once gives presents on a monthly basis to his gf...respect wei...BUT ofcos...my point here isn't about quantity!..but more of correctly placing the intention...obviously these special days shud be celebrated...but i think the reason for celebration shud be beyond tht =P

anyways...i plannin to stay up whole nite...n this piece of thought just came into my mind..haha..n so again...Happy CNY guys!

I'm gonna be 21 this year?....

I just realized i'm gonna get the key to my freedom this year...lol...but looking back at it...how much do i resemble a 21 year old male eh?....honestly...most people would find me to be around 17 or 18 now...just surveyed some people at the foosball table..n yeah...the new pre-u students thinks i'm in another pre-u course too =P

so...comparing me with another 21 year old punk.....how different am I?....firstly I dont go clubbing n i'm not really a fan of drinking weekly..lol...oh well...i think tht's more of personal preferences rather age differences...hahaha..after all not all 21 yr old people would go clubbing rite....(maybe i'm wrong O_O haha..)...N then....2ndly....when i mix with my frenz from VU....I realised sumthing....I don hav the thing called "ex-es"...yeah ex-gf n stuffs....ALL of them has ex-gf or ex-bf..except for me...somehow i think i'm kinda left behind huh...lol...(Must put in more effort RAWR!!...or quoting from someone maybe i just shud hav buffed up more huh =P..wonder whether it'll work =_=..after all i'm still considered new in these things...)...N oh yeah!...I still enjoy cartoons n animes!...does tht make me stand out from the 21 yr old general crowd?...i dunno haha....but adults these days still watch those animations on cinema k...so i don think i'm diff much la...haha..

Now tht i'm approaching 21....will i be taken seriously?..lol...don think so....how will i be viewed n perceived of eh?....haha....hard to say ler these things...wonder who could say wat it means to be 21...

but but...hey in the end..main issue is..who can tell me why i still look like i'm 17/18 la...cos my look nvr changed?...or am i always young at heart tht my body doesn't grow old...lol..or i just don act like 21?...haha....who can tell me >.<.....

Effort...

Haha i forgotten bout my own yearly review....wat i done in the past year...n whether i hav achieved anything or not....honestly...i don think i achieved much...compared to the year before where i completed my NS training n got my scholarship n stuffs....2008 wasn't tht special as it should be...my guess is...it's because I forget what it means to put in effort when it comes to accomplishing something...haih..

When i was Form 4/5 like tht...when I really wanna achieve something....I really can put in the Effort to get it leh...it's like the passion for it...n I really try every single way to try n get it...For example..like my studies.......Hmm....wait...I was quite lazy at tht time...nvm skip tht...Let's talk bout how i really like to entertain my classmates...lol..(ok...something to talk about...)I remember doing all those "childish" stuffs like hiding behind walls...n scaring people..(Form 5 lol...people do tht in standard 5 wei..)..but oh well...people laughed..tht's all tht matters...n I remember tht my Sarcasm was put into best use tht year..lol...until I got the title of Court Jester of 5s5....LOL...din see tht coming...

Anyway...the 1 thing tht really shocked even myself..is when i decide to try n "chase" a girl..honestly...at tht point of time...I was clueless bout things like tht..(even still clueless now...)..so wat happen was....My brain told me to try every single way!..don leave anything untried....n by every single way means tht every way tht is normally used...lol...(U could say my mind was set then..n i really decide to go for it..)..so...Starting...for her birthday...I tried the "Soft Toy" teknik...n conclusion is...i'm surprised at how the plan backfired!!..lol..cos u see....normally this plan will work...but..BUT....if the girl happens to hav 2 large wardrobes keeping soft toys...the chances of she having the same 1 is relatively high...n tht's wat happened la!! but she still accepted it la =_=lol...

oh well...then i move on to the Website teknik (u all get the idea la)...this one....I actually tried to learn using photoshop before decorating the website...n it was tedious to learn using it at my age k...then i google so many things...just to slowly slowly learn to put up many things on the website n make it look nice...i remember it was on tripod.com or something...lol...(cant believe i used tht teknik..)..n the list goes on la!...such as the "Letter" teknik...I even tried the "Go into the same club" teknik wei!! =_= until unexpectedly i became naib pengerusi summore =_= cos i attend duty so often n being so rajin...LOL..the things i've done...this is pure effort wei...but in the end...the bird flies...the sun sets...things din happen the way I hoped it would la...oh well...but i don call it effort wasted k..it was memorable..

N now...for those who knows me now...do i look like the kind of person who does things like i mentioned in the previous paragraph?...I bet Mark wouldn't believe...lol...not even any Projects...haha..I don even look like i wud do those things when i was form4/5..n when my fren told me tht i suddenly took a "turn"..I also..."Yahoh"..haha...anyways...these days...I'm just not as motivated dy...somehow..I just hope i can regain tht passion for things n get in tht energetic mood..n not just staying chilled everyday as though everything tht happens wouldn't shake me much la...

anyways...i know some of these things i mentioned may seem small to some of u there...but it does reflect something...it does..n oh well tht's it for this long post...my brain stop dy suddenly...just feel like putting my thoughts out once in a while =P

NY resolution....

I tot of another impossible thing!! therefore it shall be a new year resolution oso...

It is....

"THT"....

lol....go figure it out yurselves.....muahahhaha....it's like those IQ questions tht u'll nvr get the answers.....muahahahhaaha

Sometimes...

Sometimes....i think tht things are just unfair...as though it happens in a way tht intentionally opposes our wish....Enough said....

New year..new year...

2009...so many pessimistic views on this year...but i not gonna mention it la..makes it all the more gloomier...anyways...i seen so many people writing down or rather listing their new year resolution for 2009...i guess i shud too haha...seeing tht normally people don't achieve these goals...i shall list down impossible things tht I would like to achieve this year =___=..kinda pointless huh..but who cares...

Firstly....GAIN WEIGHT!!!!!...gain weight...fat or muscle....basically growing sideways!...I nvr get to grow "bigger"...not in the last 20 years of my life....so i guess this shud be a new year resolution...n yeah...lots of people say i shud eat more...(been there..done tht...)..n 1 fren specifically hinted me to get buffer so tht i could get a gf..=__=..which brings us to our next point..

GET A GF!!!..lawl at this la...havent been thinking on tht part of my life for pretty long...maybe i shud start putting in some effort to look around eh....to appreciate chances n oppurtunities...just so tht i wudn't hav to envy others..lawl....kidding onli....(Sync is my idol wei...he got his gf's house key..me n moomoo were like "wtf.." O__O..)

GET A LIBRARY CARD!!!....oh well....i know i have been in Sunway since my ausmat days....but i still havent get a library card...lol...n they say it's so important to get 1...but who cares la....my assignment marks still high enaf =P...but but...this year i'll try to get 1 la....cos i'm so lazy to apply for 1 for the past few years...hehe..

Tht's all i could think for now la...hahaha...will slowly add on somemore in later posts if got idea...lol..